Where would I be without the love and support from friends and family?
I don’t even know how to begin to answer this. Life is one crazy journey and I’m so grateful for the people I get to share it with.
Infertility completely sucks for so many reasons but it also ‘given’ me a few things as well. Learning to accept and lean on friends and family for support is one of the biggest ones. At the beginning of our journey with treatments we didn’t tell many people but the longer we wait for our miracle the more I have opened up to people. The response from people has really shocked me. I’ve met other’s going (or have gone) through treatments and adoption, friends that truly care and family that supports any decisions we make.
This cycle has been no different. I had a hard time accepting that we only had 2 fertilized embryos for transfer (yes I know…be thankful we had those) and we were given some difficult information (egg quality problems) basically immediately after our transfer. We went from feeling high that we transfer 2 good looking embryos to hurt and taken back with the news from the lab report.
I was really trying to force myself to stay positive and think of my two babes inside of me. Willing them to grow and telling them how much I loved them already but it was hard. I’m so scared. I don’t want to face hurt again.
Then within 18 hours something crazy happened. I had so many messages and calls from friends checking in on us, wishing us the best and letting us know they were thinking, hoping and praying for us. What an amazing feeling. The pinnacle was a friend who brought me to tears (in a good way!). She called to let me know she was thinking of us, that she truly believed that this was our time, that she was going to be praying for us. I don’t know what exactly happen but something broke inside me. If was as for that moment all my worries about this 2WW were gone and I totally believed as well. She completely restored my sense of hope and optimism.
I can’t believe how truly blessed we are with amazing friends and family.
I know it’s going to still be a long 2 weeks filled with worry and anxiety but also with hope and optimism. I also know that when the worry and anxiety start to take over again I have incredible people I can lean on.